This morning I had to drop off my chocolate lab, Rosie at the vet's office. They are putting her under to do a deep ear wash. She has had chronic ear infections this winter. I hate just dropping them off and leaving them there. And then I return home to a frenetic Gus who is very vocal and running around the house looking for her. He has never known this house without her.
Early this morning my daughter, son-in-law, grandson and grandaughter soon to be left for Arkansas. He has gotten a tenured track teaching job at the University. They are so excited. I try hard to be excited for them but inside I feel like my heart is breaking. I have loved having them here in town. Every time I see my grandson he has grown and learned so much. He says "Grandma" now. He runs around showing me his little things in the house. A friend of mine just had her first grandchild and sent pictures. She emailed me that she "can't stop thinking about him". There is something about those little ones! You look forward to their birth but you have no idea until you see them how much your heart can expand. It is a strange feeling that someone so small can stir up all your feelings. Little fingers and toes make you want to cry. They stir memories of my own children. Their shoes got bigger and bigger. And then one day they walked out of home, off to their own worlds. I love them with all my heart but, my heart didn't know all of the things I've learned since they were small. I know if I am afraid for my Grandchildren. I don't ever want them to get stitches or lose a great love. I worry about my precious little family moving away from friends and family. It feels like they are putting everything in a covered wagon and setting out to the unknown. Thank goodness today we have unlimited phone priviledges and computers. I am going to buy a video cam so I can talk to them and they are going to do the same.
The vet just called to say Rosie is doing fine. Her ear is worse than she expected. We will have to do this again. We also need to figure out what she is allergic to. The Vet says labs are prone to ear infections and allergies.
Tonite I will pick up Rosie. Tomorrow my daughter may find a new home in Arkansas. Funny how life works.
Poor Rosie. I have a black lab and I know about those ear infections!
How hard it must be to see your daughter and family move away. My heart goes out to you.
Posted by: JoAnnA Pierotti | May 12, 2006 at 09:11 AM